On Saturday my mom was telling me a story about something upsetting that happened. She was still feeling unsettled and I immediately did the thing to her that I get so mad at her for doing to me. Luckily I only did it in my head. I’ve been playing with this particular pattern, so I [...]
This morning I was thinking that it’s been a year since I moved into my sweet, little, ramshackle beach place. (Emphasis on the shack.) And about how scared I was to sign the lease. And about how, before I even let myself go look for a place, I decided I needed a steadier freelance gig [...]
It’s no secret: I love Shiva Nata. But no matter, I had been evading all of its charms. No practice for me. I was still using Shiva Nata concepts to have epiphanies like crazy, but I sidelined my physical practice. I got spooked. Back story: A couple of years ago I started getting aural migraines. [...]
I made friends with the tamale guy at the farmers’ market last Saturday. This is embarrassingly huge for me. Not making a friend so much – more to do with how it happened. I was waiting for someone who was standing in the world’s slowest line. (With the world’s oldest, sweetest farmer.) So I busied [...]
I read Daniel Coyle’s The Talent Code the first week of 2010, and I still think about the premise at least, oh, every single day. Hands down the most influential businessey read of my year. Not to build it up or anything. Premise: Remarkable talent is possible for all of us. That means you. And [...]
I ate a chocolate croissant on Sunday. I’ve been wanting one for a month, since seeing “It’s Complicated” on Valentines Day. Watching Meryl Streep & Steve Martin bake and delight in a batch of chocolate croissants in that sweet Santa Barbara bakery planted a seed that was bound to grow. Not that I’ve been resisting [...]
So yeah, I’m structure-resistant. And it’s not just about that pendulum swing of rigid productivity versus slacker rebellion. I think it also has to do with thinking I shouldn’t need help. Because I want to be one of those people who is perpetually mindful and productive. And since I think I should already be there, [...]
Even if you’re prone to seasickness. Or, erm, emphatically structure-resistant like me. Maybe I should back up, yes? One of my prevalent life-sized patterns is to swing wildly from one end of a pendulum to another. Back when the main hitch in my giddyup was food and body-related, it looked like this: Deprive self of [...]
I went hiking one morning last week after rain had left the canyon slippery and sludgey with mud. After ten steps, my tennies were caked and heavy and I was sliding and clomping. Um, anti-graceful. And I had this fleeting thought that it was ridiculous to be hiking. Like I was doing something wrong. Guilt [...]
Yeah, this is about changing my coffee drinking habits. But of course it’s kind of about everything. Okay, so this habit changing stuff is hard. Also exciting, interesting, confusing, enlightening. At least if you’re doing it somewhat consciously. At moments I’m actually have fun with the process. Fun! I know, I’m weird. Seriously. And then, [...]