Or do anything really.
I played badminton completely humiliated myself on Halloween. An actual tournament of embarrassment if you will. (I’m athletic, I love tennis, I can hold my own in most sports; something about badminton brings out extreme lack of coordination. Particularly embarrassing while donning a costume.) Anyway, not the point, just setting the scene.
I spent a big part of the day talking to friends of friends about what they do, why they hate it, and what it is they really want to do. Wait, that’s not entirely true. I would have loved to talk to them about what they want to do. What we really talked about is what they think they should do.
I had a handful of conversations with people who are a couple of years into corporate careers very similar to mine. Predictably, they’re starting to feel the teensiest bit restless. And ahoy, this moment is pivotal. Because one guy’s boredom is somehow pushing him to consider law school. You know, because that will be so different and interesting. Not. At. All.
One more conversation involved a GMAT score rehash and business school aspirations. And another with someone who thinks maybe she should just walk away from it all and join the Peace Corps. De-ja-freaking-vu. Across the board.
Okay, so this was only one conversation and admittedly I don’t know these people very well. These might be three awesome decisions. In fact, I’m pretty sure the guy going to business school is chasing a heart-pumping dream. So what I have to say isn’t really specific to them at all…
It’s just my knee-jerk reaction to people getting too practical before they ever admit to themselves what it is they actually want. I just want to shake them, and scream that you can actually do work you enjoy. Which will make me seem like a bit of a basket case, and maybe not someone you want to be taking advice from. So I usually try to restrain myself. Sometimes it doesn’t work.
Anyway, when we’re considering law or business school without any actual passion driving the idea, I wonder if there’s a part of us that’s thinking:
Gosh, what I’m doing now is so incredibly boring that if I don’t lock myself in, I might run away and do something rash. Like, maybe follow my heart or something. So instead, I’ll saddle myself with student loans and guilt in the hopes that it will squish that teeny voice in my head that keeps crying out for some glimmer of that excitement, passion, fulfillment junk people are always raving about.
And what I’m really trying to say is that the worst reason to go to law school is that you just don’t know what else to do. Two of the smartest people I know went this route, and dropped out before the holiday break their first year. Not because law school itself was hard, but because anything is hard when your heart’s not in the game.
I’m not saying you have to have your entire career mapped out, or that your vision has to be written in ink before you take a single step. Sometimes you’ll only know the next right thing. But it should actually feel like the right thing. And I have a hunch these kind of decisions feel more like the practical thing. Blech. Or even the escape thing. Which can be attractive, but ultimately also kind of empty.
These conversations reminded me of an important step in helping anyone find their right thing: talking them out of law school, business school, clown school. Of course I’m kidding. I could totally get behind clown school. And yeah, I spent a halloween badminton tournament talking about career paths. Love this stuff. On that note, thoughts? Do you ever threaten to go through with a business school fall back plan?

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Hah. Funny, feel like I’m reading a version of my life. Except in mine I went to law school knowing I didn’t want to practice, went through three emotionally and physically draining years, graduated, reinforced my desire that no, I did not in fact want to be a lawyer when I grew up, breathed a huge sigh of relief when I told everyone, got annoyed*/laughed when my parents said that they had talked about my returning to anthropology at my law school graduation, relaxed**, and am now in grad school pursuing my PhD in anthropology. That is not to say that I regret a moment of the “proper” professional degree that I earned. Believe me, I earned it. And I’m proud of that achievement. And ultimately I have a fantastic set of tools to work with in any occupation/life path that I set out to do. So what’s the major point for me? That ultimately these divergences should be about developing a set of tools personalized to you. Tools that can enable you to take advantage of opportunity whenever or wherever. I live my life knowing that I have options b/c I have tools. I just may not know what those opportunities are or where they will take me. That is my blissful*** take on the future.
*annoyed b/c even after having lived 1600 miles away from them, they still knew me so well … and of course that they didn’t mention it right after law school graduation
**worked as a manager/merchandiser/buyer for a jewelry boutique (and online boutique); then as a community organizer; coffee-shop barista (and yes, I make a mean latte)
***thanks Bri, for such a fantastic word
I hear that. I made that mistake. I’ll finish, but I am going to go to medical school afterwards; this was my original passion and plan
You know, there are these concepts in Yoga (and life in general), but in Yoga, part of the PATH is abhyasa, otherwise known as constant, disciplined practice of something (deep practice) and the principle that most naturally accompanies this principle is Vairagya, which is non-attachment to outcome, or letting go.
Now, in my own experience, I was married to an outcome of making lots of money and being secure when I was working as an accountant. There is NO WAY that I could have deep practiced (abhyasa) with a spirit of non-attachment (Vairagya), which naturally would have told me that I was doing the WRONG thing in life.
Even though I want to make a good living coaching, I am okay with deep practice for it’s own sake (dedicated practice + non-attachment = your right path) because I’m doing exactly what I’m supposed to be doing. What would it be like if we all found the thing we do because there is no way we CAN’T do it??
They should teach this formula to people studying for the GRE.
xxoo
Gosh these comments are so thoughtful!
@Lise & Jennifer: Let me just contradict myself for a minute and say that after the fact, i.e. you already went to law school, of course it was the perfect thing to do. Because it’s what you did.
@Lise ~ I couldn’t agree more with the tools theory, and I think that when we find our thing, all of that past experience is absolutely necessary to help us do the thing well, and be happy doing it. Your perspective rocks.
@Nona ~ I really adore that way of looking at it… do the thing you can’t NOT do. Thanks for that, my dear
The fanciful life of the passionless. Oh how I envy homogenized safety and intellectual slavery. And yes, I am philosophizing and waxing dullerific.
@Josh ~ As a reformed white collar intellectual slave/hamster, I love a good philosophical waxing